Something needs to change

Discipline - dis·ci·pline
1. Training expected to produce a specific character or pattern of behavior, especially training that produces moral or mental improvement.
2. Controlled behavior resulting from disciplinary training; self-control

Disciplined. I have been described many times with this word. I know that in many areas of my life I am quite disciplined. On the pendulum of self-discipline I am well aware of the fact that I am on one extreme. My ways seem way far out of reach for many. And while I have friends that say they admire me for this, I'm also certain that none of them desire the extent that I go;)

Examples:
* I work out. Six days a week. And nothing keeps me from doing so. If I skip a workout I feel like I've let myself down - not because I think I'm going to gain weight or because I think I'm a bad person, but because I have expectations for myself and one of them is to workout - every.day. Non-negotiable.

* When I'm really trying to lose weight, I'm fastidious about the number of points I eat. I'm extreme in the amount of water I drink. I eat the exact same meals - except for dinner - every day. I don't deviate - unless I plan ahead.

Control issues? Perhaps. I don't find that I have a controlling personality, though, I'm just self-disciplined. Why do I find a distinction? Because I don't go out of my mind if I am not meeting those expectations. In addition, I have no desire to control the people around me - just myself:)

Anyway... I'm thinking about discipline right now because while I'm incredibly self-disciplined in some areas of my life - exercise, diet, laundry - I so severely lack discipline in other areas at times. Right now is one of those times.

Proverbs 8:33 - Mark a life of discipline and live wisely; don't squander your precious life.
Proverbs 10:4 - Sloth makes you poor; diligence brings wealth.

A couple of verses from my morning readings... really making me consider my daily routine right now. While I will not negotiate my workouts, I'm easily distracted into avoiding my daily home-work.

I don't like cleaning. I really don't. I don't intentionally avoid it, however, I am finding that my day is more often than not getting away from me and I look back and find I've accomplished not much of anything. I have not been truly productive in quite a while.

Computer. Puzzle. TV. Work. All have provided the appropriate distractions to keep me from making my house a home. My house is fine - it is usually picked up and okay, but I haven't CLEANED in a while. And my mother-in-law is coming in two weeks - uh oh:)

So these Bible verses have touched me in a spot that I've known for a while needs some work. I KNOW I've been undisciplined in my home-work. I know I have. I'm not in denial. But I haven't been doing anything to change it either.

Today I will spend a little time mapping out my day and finding a routine/schedule that I can manage. I will also check back into flylady and find out where they are in the whole taking-care-of-the-house routine.

I can feel in my soul that I've been unhappy with myself about this. It is time to start working.