I'm often overwhelmed at the amount of responsibility I have

I'm 30 years old. 30. Thats really not very old. And when I think about the amount of responsibility I have, I want to cry. Thats why I don't think about it very often and I just go on with life and do things one day at a time.

I'm not going to make a list of my responsibilities - you all have them, too - but I will say that the only things I'm NOT responsible for are the cars, the lawn, feeding the dog and giving him his pills, and the investing. I do everything else. I take care of everything and everyone else. Dave helps me a lot - especially if I ask, but for the most part I am fully responsible for everything else.

Like I said, I don't think about it too much. I can't, because I might just never get out of bed. I go about my day doing my duties, taking care of the girls, the house, and everything that goes along with it like its not a big deal. And when you think of it like that - it isn't really a big deal.

You know what really overwhelms me though? To think that I'm responsible for the health and well-being of 3 other little people. If I really think about it, that seems incredibly daunting. THAT is what overwhelms me. I am fully responsible, at this point, for their health and nutrition, their basic needs and their major needs.

Parenting and caring for the girls could be very easy. Let them eat what they want when they want. Let them watch as much tv and whatever tv they want. Let them go to bed when they want - or not at all. Let them do whatever they want. Never say No.

But it isn't that simple. I COULD do that, but it would not be in the best ineterest of Nora, Ryann and Georgia and our family as a whole.

Its hard work trying to raise 3 little girls with healthy self-esteems, modesty, and good character. Its hard to figure out what to feed them everyday for 3 meals a day that incorporates all of the food groups and not too much sugar. Its hard to teach them that vegetables are good. Its hard to know when to bring them to the doctor and when to let symptoms run their course. Its hard to remember to give them every dose of their antibiotics.

Its hard. And its overwhelming.

But I love my responsibilities. I love my life and what I do. I don't love the bills that come with it and the lack of funds at the moment, but I love thinking about the future and what we hope to provide for our girls when we're able. I love taking care of them and I love being home with them and being the one responsible for them. I love it that we're able to somehow live on one income so I can be home with them and see every little thing they do, give them their medicine, and tell Dave stories about them while we're in bed at night. I love them.

And sometimes I spend too much time on the computer because I'm feeling overwhelmed;)

QOTD:

What do you do to escape when you're feeling overwhelmed by life?

getting to know me in 100 days - day 14